You want to be real, you want to be empty inside

And I know my heart is to feel you near

And I know my life

It's to do your will

It's to do your will

This is my desire, this is my return

This is my desire to be used by you

It was the summer of 2004 that I surrendered my will and my desires for life over to Christ. I will never forget that morning. I was standing on the roof of the Parque Espana hotel in Manila, Philippines. It was the last day of our summer mission trip. I had gotten up early to watch the sun rise, pray, and get some thoughts out on paper. I was listening to a Jeremy Camp CD, and as the song "My Desire" played, I claimed those words as my own and asked the Lord to use me in any way He saw fit. I prayed that His desire would become my life. It was a prayer that I had often prayed, and meant, but this was in a different way. As I was praying, He was asking me to follow and be used by Him to reach the lost world, and that is the morning I said yes.

I often go back to that morning and smile at how God has continued to answer that prayer over the past couple of years. Cross-culture missions is a huge passion of mine. The Lord continually affirms this calling and continually fans my passion for His gospel to be spread across the world. My church and my family are both HUGE advocates for this passion. They continually push me on towards this calling.

I do not know what this will look like for the years to come, but I am not worried about that. My desire is to do His will and for this season I know that His will is for me to be in India.